As you can see I'm into cultivating my garden right now. I'm ignoring the fact that the wife of the prime minister is charged with crimes, that seniors in the army and government are sexual abusers, and all that stuff. I'm convincing myself that the fact that you find a dead rat in your cupboard means you are cleaning out your cupboard and the house will now be spotless. The cholent is in the oven and now I'll make a salad and a fruit salad and maybe coax a child or two to eat something of it. And then maybe I'll think about how to get involved in politics again.
December 4, 2016
Suddenly it creeps up on me. We live our usual life today like every day and suddenly i realize that Ezi has a PET scan tomorrow and has to refrain from too much physical activity and alcohol. And suddenly I realize that the PET will be in the health clinic and not the hospital so there will be nothing in the neighborhood to distract me for what they promise will take up to 8 hours. And suddenly i understand that he will be radioactive later tomorrow. I don't know how I forgot, but the moment i remembered I forgot everything else for that day.
But there were so many other things going today. I don't know where to begin.
Maybe I should begin by going to sleep.
December 5, 2016
This is part of the evening with Korin Alal and me and Dan Shorer last week
>December 6, 2016
Yesterday was Ezi's PET scane = it was done at the health clinic and took 5 hours; one hour of waiting for Ezi to go in, and 4 hours for him to get through what should have been a much shorter procedure. I wandered the halls with my laptop on my back looking for a place to write a lecture for tomorrow. The poetry now conference. i was going to give a little talk about poetry's use, but then someone backed out of a panel and i agreed to chair it, and then someone else backed out of a lecture and i agreed to do one to fill in the space, but now i'm too tired to do all that. Especially since i have a full day today too. Still, if you want to see me as a circus performer, come to Gilman 496 tomorrow. And if you want to see some really good critics and poets, come!
December 7, 2016
You missed it - i was overwhelmed by poetry, poetry criticism, poetry, poetry discussion, poetry, etc. etc. The poets themselves seemed to focus on the tragedy of the local war two years ago and the depression of the US elections. I don't know. The more the mistakes, the mishandlings, the utter unconcern for the lives of all the people, and the lies in the previous wars, are uncovered, the happier I am. I'm not happy about what happened but I am less terrified when the truths are uncovered, when the society is an open one, when we realize what is wrong and can maybe begin to fix it before it is too late...
December 8, 2016
TI Swimming class in a few minutes. A warm wetsuit the makes me feel doubly self-conscious, especially since i'm an awkward swimmer and our teacher films us - for educational purposes.
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